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Summer break: looking back on a year that hit me with everything


I’m exhausted.

I think life hit me with everything this year.

I moved flats. I left a company. I retrained professions. I had surgery. I started a new job. I started a new company. I had a relationship meltdown. And I moved flats again.

Those are just some of the highlights.

2014 has been a transformative year for me. I’ve learnt a lot. Most of it the hard way; some the hardest. And at the centre of it all, for the final four months of the year, has been Banqer.

The accidental company.

But now it’s summer. I get two weeks off work (the one that actually pays me). Time to be with family. Time to relax. Time to focus on whatever I want.

I was thinking of going on a self-imposed Banqer Ban during the two weeks. But I’ve decided against it. I love working on Banqer. It gives me satisfaction and fulfilment. I consider myself extremely lucky to be in the position where work doesn’t feel like work, so why shouldn’t I indulge?

But I am definitely going to get in a lot of time for mindfulness and personal development planning. I don’t think I could do another 2014. I regret nothing that has happened, but I want to repeat it. I want 2015 to be equally as exciting, and challenging, but more purposeful.

So will I be working on Banqer on Christmas day? Most probably (Christmas isn’t massive at my house). Will I let it come before my family? Of course not. I treasure the limited time I get with them. I don’t care how many posts I read on need to have ‘laser focused vision and determination when starting up’. These posts proclaim that you need to put everything on hold when starting a startup - family included. I’ll never put anything before the time I get to spend with my family. What’s the point? To make a bunch of money so I can spend more time with my family one day? Life's too short. People get sick. Parents get older. Brother turn into teenagers and realise it’s not cool to hang out with you.

There’s room for both these holidays, no bans necessary.